Cheerobics 2009

Cheerobics 2009 is finally over!

My SA kids joined the open division group cat. as team Spectrum Youth.
The heel stretch din dismount the way I intended for it to, but hey, the flyer din fall and the bases managed to save the stunt and continue with the routine.
'm really happy that they listened and practised what they were taught - the importance of communication during routine.

For a team who had little experience and training time, they did very well.
And I would not expect anything more from them.

To XY, Singgih, Pinky, Bryan, Doreen: 'm really proud of you all.

As for Spectrum, well, we withdrew from the group cat.
Ya, after all the late nites, pain, tears, injuries, sacrifices, effort and hopes, we didn't take part.
It is a long story.
But I think it doesnt matter anymore.
Although we din display the fruits of our labour, what matter most is the lessons learned for the past 2 weeks.

We are 5 cheerleaders who came together with one common goal - Cheerobics.
And we forgot that we are 5 individuals with different skills and abilities, believes and values, and ways of handling stress.
As a result, we misunderstand, and were misunderstood.
Many a times, we almost fell apart as a team.
And it was only after sessions of "serious talk" that we start to see things from each other's point of view.

We still dun understand each other completely, but we are learning to get there.
And with that, hopefully, we would learn to trust each other more during stunts in the future.

Then there are those from Spectrum who came for trainings just to spot our stunts, to ensure our safety, and to support us in whatever way they can.
'm really grateful to them.
Thank you so much *hugz*

I'm (and the rest of the group are also) in pain and covered in bruises.
'm wishing hard for a speedy recovering of our injuries.
Thank you so much to those who showed concern over my injuries.
Something as simple as "how are you now?" and "are you ok?" makes me feel less pathetic, and that there are still some warmth in this world.

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My right leg is still very much in pain, and I can barely rest my weight on it without feeling the pain.

Hopefully I can recover soon - I miss kickbox and tennis.

Trust

In the prev prev training, I hit the side of my head, again.
It is still swollen.

In the prev training, I was let free-fall, head down, before being caught by the bases and came to a sudden stop.
Ed said I was inches away from the ground before being caught.
I really thot I was going to hit the ground *touch wood*
The shock of it made me teared, and I couldn't bring myself to do the same stunt again.
Lost the trust, I guess.

Now, I'm covered in bruises.

Ed asked me if it is worthed all these, if this is really what I want.
Honestly, I still want to go for it... to try to improve myself as a cheerleader.
It is what I want.
I'm just not sure if the injuries are justified.

I miss cheering with Eddie, David, KJ, Weida, Law, Isaac and Chuanyan.
And even CR - cos I know he would catch me no matter what.
I miss being able to trust my bases.

Cheerobics 2009 - Coming Soon!

Cheerobics 2009 is coming soon!!!

Date: 22 March 2009 (Sunday)
Time: 2pm - 7pm
Venue: Zouk carpark

Be there, or be square (omg... this line is so cheesy).

Another Fall

I had a bad fall during training on Thursday.

I hit my head.
I had many falls before, and this one didn't appear to be serious.
But it was somehow different.

Usually I would try to stand up asap after a fall.
This time, it was impossible.
No one knows how ouch it was, except me.

First, it was a sudden impact on my head.
Then the pain crawled along the side of my head, down to my neck and shoulder, until I could not pinpoint where it was exactly.
The side of my head got so heavy that I couldn't do anything, except lying there on my side.

I heard Ah Feng asking me if I was ok.
I tried to speak, but couldn't.
I saw Veron handing me a tissue.
I wanted to reach for it, but couldn't.
The pain was too much for me to take, and I was trying hard to hold back my tears.

If I had landed on my neck, or the back of my head...
*touch wood touch wood*

I wanted to throw up on the way home.
And I had trouble sleeping cos of my neck and shoulder.
Ed was so worried that we almost went to the hospital for a checkup.
He said he wanna be there at the subsequent trainings leading up to cheerobics to ensure I'm safe.
I feel so bad, cos I know he has lotsa work to do, and he has inadequate rest to match that heavy workload of his.

I finally realised no one is responsible for my safety, except myself.
The shadow of this fall is gonna stick around for quite some time.

I feel so depressed.

Either This, Or That

It is not easy to be a coach, and a friend at the same time.

Too strict, and I become unapproachable.
Too friendly, and the rules I worked so hard to put in place are taken for granted.